A part of the Lie that's called Friendschip

It feels like hell every day and I don't understand why. I have a lot of fake friends. People who claim to be someone they're not. It takes a lot of time and investment to build a friendship with someone. Well, at least for me.

Resently I gave up on one of them. She is put back into my list of acquaintances. Something I should have done a long time ago. Lindy is a friend who says that she is straightforward, but really she's not at all. She is afraid of saying things to me cause I might get upset or angry at her. She Always talks about how she misses her friends, well she changed her entire life and expect everybody to change with her. She was my maid of honor for my wedding. But in January she wanted to quit that because I never called or texted her. We never came to visit. But the truth is neither did she. And if we're gonna weigh our friendship I have to say. We went there a couple of times and meanwhile they never came here. Somewhere in November she was coming over to watch a movie. Up until today we haven't seen her here. She's always busy with others or when there is time for me everything is about her. Do I even fit in her life? And does she fit in mine?

When she walkes into a room, she's all over the place. Most of the time she just suckes all the energy out of your body. Some like with her boyfriend (Ithink). Last summer she moved in with him and his folks cause she wasn't that much at home anymore. They already had an on and off relationship. Everybody asked her if it was a smart move, but she was sure. 2 Weeks later she came crying to Shanty. She dumped him and needed a place to stay until she had her own place again. It was definetively over. She had to cancel the planned vacation we were going on together beacause she needed to save the money. A month later she had her own place and moved all her stuff. Guess who helped her? Mitch, the ex or not ex or whatever. But he was just a friend and he wasn't gonna stay there. A week after she moved, me and my boyfriend went to visit her. Mitches shoes and clothes were all over the place. Are we supposed to believe he didn't live there? Really??

So after a couple of weeks again she finally told us they were back together and it was going great. For how long? And this kept on going for a wihile. Until it hit me. Everytime he made a mistake in her eyes, Big or small that didn't matter, she broke up with him. When he didn't do things her way it was over. Her way or no way.  I started to get fed up with it. So I simply told her that she had to make a choise. Don't come crying that you threw him out again or don't throw him out, cause I've had enough. Well, she made her choise, I never heard about it anymore. Nice. Until I heared what she said to Loren about him. Lindy wanted to dump Mitch, but she was gonna sit it out for a while cause the money was welcome. This way she could save up a bit before she threw him out. I mean seriously??? You're kidding me right??? Nope, that were her exact words. That was the moment that that part of our friendship was done. How can you do that to someone? I can't understand that.

Up until today they're still together I think. but I don't know and don't ask. Cause do I really want to know? I probably won't see her that much anymore. She left Reusel behind, got fired at the factory where we work and she moved again. Even further away than the last time.